Tears of a poet

I don’t care if I’m real or not, as long I’m not aware of the fact that I’m an illusion.

The world only gets dirtier if you try to understand it’s essence.

Secrets hide in the shadows of our mind, not in the land of the unknown

Oh, Godless sin
Kind merciful frenzy
Sinful Begin
Foresees he not?

Frenzied judgement
Clouded moment
No return, triggered nothing
End of the begin!

rain, dark dreariness
dark clouds create dreary wings
wings, fly high above the mess
Old mess, troublesome things

poison, exploring veins
veins explored long ago
Old highway, grab reigns
cold winter, black snow

New day, same darkness
Old slumbering pain
given a new face

New day same façade
Old slumbering man
given a new darkness

indulging myself in music
this vile corrupted world
my only light in darkness
in this corrupted world’s darkness

volume on full
blocking the rest of my senses
senses worth blocking in the dark
numbness has become my salvation

my brain won’t shut down
painful things keep popping up.
But where has my light gone
my light remains at the end of the tunnel

running away from the light
the light illuminates
illuminates what I’m afraid of
rather a fool than afraid

so here I am 
a blind and hurt fool
in the labyrinth called brain
I’m lost, am I not?

Dark Gronds

A day on the oceans smooth face.
Enjoying the warming sun.
Somewhere in my mind rings a thought.
There was more to live than this.

Silent waters have deep grounds.
Every time I stare in the depths of the ocean.
I see myself with the one I loved long ago.
She was eaten by the same waves I conquer.

After a minute the tide gets stormy.
Is it my imagination or does the wind blows stronger.
Reality and desire flow over in each other.
I’m inclined to feed myself to the sea. 

To embark on the same journey as she once made.
The very last journey for mankind.
strangled by the depths of the sea.
Then I would be a little closer to her.

Strange humming noises escapes my throat.
Echoing over the water.
Driven insane by my own desire.
Suddenly I’m enveloped by darkness.

Retrospection 

A dreary sadness in my brains
Is like a poison running trough my veins
Being without a purpose feels hollow
Only my heart sustains my flow

My eyes aren’t shinning brightly
Chaos is taking over clarity 
This world has turned dark
I regret the journey on which I embark

An storm cloud is raging in my mind
My spirit yearns to be free from this farce
I can’t distinct the truth from lies
still hoping the sun will finnaly rise

Carnaval

Everywhere I look I see masks
Will we ever stop with this stupid façade?
I don’t know if what I see is real
Why don’t we stop this stupid masquerade

Distancing yourself from everyone
Waiting for your own demise
Living in your own shell
Your actions dictated by your disguise

I even hear your soul crying
Trying to break from his chains
In which you shackled him yourself
But there is still blood running in your veins

You can still throw away your mask
Let the world see your face
Let the fools continue their carnaval
show them who’s out of place 

You can have it al

My empire of dirt

I would do everything

To keep you from hurt

 .

When you’re lonely

I would stand in the rain

I would, night after day

To endure your pain

 .

I know it aint much

but it’s al I can do

Accept my desire

To suffer with you

. 

I’m too weak to change

Anything at all

That’s why I stand here

My back against your wall

. 

I’ll try to protect you

I’m just strong enough

to share your misery

I can’t change this world though